a first for everything

I'm starting this cause, I'm sick of writing on pieces of paper about how I'm feeling.

you know how everyone has this whole... idea that they have to know every single thing about the person they're with? I don't really like that. I mean, sure it provides a good basis to a relationship, but then... All of the mystery is gone. 

there should be a first for everything.
the thing is that, it should be right. it should be completely okay for you to fall in love with someone who is totally out of your league, like a nerd falling in love with the cheerleader or the quarterback falling in love with the bookworm. I don't see anything wrong with it, because love takes in many forms. love is funny like that; it makes you love people you never thought you would, and makes you hate who you've become because of it. 

so what is it REALLY that gets us all going? I don't remember love being as great as everyone is making it out to be. I've only ever felt it once, but that was a long time ago and now it just seems like memory. something that I can't imagine anymore, or feel. oh, aren't I in shit?

I have a friend who is searching for the "magic" 
and I feel like screaming, "IT'S RIGHT IN FRONT OF YOU!". if you stop chasing it, it'll come to you. but I never listen to my own advice, stooooooopid.

p.s. this blog will be shared between Elyza Khamil and Gabrielle Rowan - a way for us to stay in contact when we're unable to talk to each other. 

missing you my darling, always <333333